It’s been interesting, to say the least, becoming a mom. I’ve been through many challenges in my life thus far, but parenthood is a whole new ball game. There’s a very specific reason why, it’s not just about me anymore. I am now responsible for a life. Not just raising him, but more importantly, teaching him to know God’s love and to seek His plan for his life. All the while, doing my best to persevere and live out God’s plan for my life. That’s a big pill to swallow. I’m over here just trying to keep my head above water due to the sleep deprivation alone, how am I supposed to do it all?
I’ve always loved the verse, “There is a season for everything. A purpose for everything under the sun.” Ecc 3:1. The thing is, I only ever think about that verse when I’m going through something challenging and I need a reminder that there’s a reason for it, and I will come out stronger on the other side. It’s no different than the other encouraging verses or phrases I keep in my back pocket- “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me,” or “This too shall pass.” And I think as a believer it’s important to fall back on verses like these in times of struggle and triumph, but through this new season God has been challenging me to let go of the convenience of having motivational one-liners to comfort myself with and really get into the depth of what He wants me to receive from His word.
What I have been learning is that God sets up times and seasons in our lives and they aren’t all meant to be a harvest. There are plowing seasons, planting seasons, and watering seasons too, but there is joy in every season and without them, you’ll never get the harvest God has planned for you.
I’m also beginning to understand that it’s still ok to struggle through a season, in fact, it’s normal. We put so much pressure on ourselves to live up to other’s expectations and even the expectations we place on ourselves, when really, you only know what you know.
This last week we began a new bible study for the Women’s Ministry at my church called Proven by Jennie Allen. (God always has a way of sneaking in, or in this case making it loud and clear, validation for what He’s trying to teach me) The subject for the very first week shot like an arrow to my soul, Are you tired? YES. The study begins with learning to understand that I am not enough. I am not enough? Here I am trying to conquer the world as I add the role of “new mom” to my plate, and I will never be enough? The beauty is what she follows with after- I don’t ever have to be enough, because God is enough. Hallelujah.
There are moments almost every day that I feel exhausted, overwhelmed, and ready to give up. And in those moments I look up and say “God, I’m asking you to renew my strength because You are enough.” God is not going to stop every difficulty, but He will give you the strength to get through it!
“Then I will give you rain in due season, and the land shall yield her increase, and the trees of the field shall yield their fruit.” Leviticus 26:4