“Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you will revive me; you will stretch forth your hand against the wrath of my enemies, And Your right hand will save me.” (Psalms 138:7)
So few words, yet so promising. One sentence that brings me back to my knees, reminding me that I am never alone.
In the spirit of the holiday season and the craziness of the hustle and bustle of buying presents, wrapping gifts, holiday parties, mailing out Christmas cards and all of the other stresses and fun of the season, I wanted to take a minute to share my thoughts around the greatest gift we ALL receive this holiday season. Or at least for me, the greatest gift that never stops giving, even after the holidays are long gone and we are on to the focus of a new year full of brand-new stresses and resolutions.
You’ve heard the saying before, With God all things are possible. Most of my adult life has been a battle against myself and to be honest, most of those struggles came from feeling alone in my situation. I would get so caught up in my own problems and self-pity that I continued to let my circumstances control my happiness and behaviors. Have you ever been the person who always buys a raffle ticket but your number never gets called out? Yep, me too. And sometimes when we continue to face challenge after challenge, we start to view our life as the raffle ticket that never wins.
It took me 31 years (I’m now 33) to find this gift that was always there, waiting for me to open it. If you would- join me. I’m going to unwrap it with you right here and break down the verse at the beginning of this article into the three separate promises, so that together we can receive this gift.
“Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you will revive me.” So you’re saying when I was struggling with infidelity in my marriage, going through my divorce or even when I was in the middle of a mid life crisis in my late twenties- He would have walked with me in my troubles and revived me? Yes Sarah. So I was never alone? No. Never. Why did I feel alone then? Because you’ve always been headstrong and you felt like He had failed you so many times before. Yes, I was stubborn and I did feel that way, I felt exactly that way. But what else was I supposed to do? I had just gone through a divorce and my life was into a million broken pieces. I was mad, I was more than mad- was angry, bitter, and resentful. And not just at myself or my situation, I was mad at God. How was I supposed to trust? You never gave Him a chance. Okay, that’s fair. What about now?
Now, if that first part isn’t promising enough, that He will walk with you, it’s the second part that’s even more incredible. “You will stretch forth your hand against the wrath of my enemies”. I don’t know about you, but I have had many enemies in my life. People who would have loved to see me fail. Even some of the people who I called friends and family were cheering me on to rock bottom. I remember when I was going through my divorce, I ran and I hid from everyone. I lost friendships and my social circle no longer looked the same. There was endless gossip and rumors being spread about me and my situation and I didn’t have the strength to fight the battle.
To be honest, I didn’t even care. It wasn’t until writing Revived (over six years later) that I found the strength and courage to tell my truth about what really happened in my marriage, why I left, and my role in all of it. During the process of writing my memoir and even when I first released it there were countless moments of fear. That was when the enemy would try to prey on my weaknesses and insecurities. But, instead of giving into the fear like I had so many times before, I would hold tight to God’s promise- I will protect you against your enemies.
It is because of this promise that I have been able to walk boldly in front of critics, naysayers, and even people who would love to see me fail.
Now let’s get to the last and very best part. Not only does He promise to walk in your troubles and stand before your enemies, He promises to save you. How beautiful is that? I love spending time reflecting in this promise. It makes me emotional every time.
When I look back at the years of destruction and chaos, including gripping details of betrayal, lies and secrets that most people would take to their grave, I no longer have to feel chained to my past. Instead, I celebrate. I celebrate the triumphs, the overcoming, and the Warrior I have become because of this very promise- I AM SAVED.
What is even more unbelievable is that no matter what I am going to face going forward- challenges, setbacks, failures… HE will walk with me, protect me against my enemies, and SAVE me. Time and time again.
Now that is a Christmas miracle!